Some Thoughts on My Life

I have had two good men in my life. They are not without short comings, but they were there for me and would do anything for me. Most people would say I should not have chosen who I did, but who are they to know what is in my heart?

I have four wonderful daughters and three wonderful daughters-in-laws. They are so talented. I could not have asked for more

I have three wonderful sons. Hard working and dedicated and good family men. I also have have four great sons-in-laws. They are very good to me. They are great to be with.

I am not the mother I should have been. I have tried at least but failed miserably at times.

I am very proud of my kids. They have succedeed in life despite their parenting.

Nobody should judge another unelss you have walked in their shoes. I am guilty of this at times.

I have very few friends and it's because I am a loner and do not really want friends. Getting together with friends once or twice a year is enough for me.

I am not spiritual enough. I am a die hard skeptic.  But I do try to see the good in all things. I know there is a higher power.

I have lots of regrets. But I have made it through some very stressful times. I have not given up where others would have.

I went back to school and furthered my education and got a good job when I was almost 50.

I like perfection but have long ago found out that sweating the small stuff can be hard on your health.

I have always had low self-esteem. I wish I had more confidance in myself.

I have had bad health for most of my life but I have a lot to be thankful for because I am still here and compared to many, my health has been great.

Sometimes I try to please too many people and then I need to realize that I cannot always please everyone.

I am glad I was born when I was. I got to experience so many things that young people today will never experience.

Lastest News: Nothing New Really

Copperton Utah Bingham Utah

Narrowest Town in America

Open Pit Copper Mine in Bingham Canyon

Kathy and Randy at the Mine

Me and Kathy at the Mine

We don't get out much and when we do, it's usually going to the DR. We jokingly say that our complete social life is going to the DR and then maybe grocery shopping or out to eat. The ladies at the DR's office laugh when we tell them that coming to see the DR is the extent of our social life.

Not much else is new. Still waiting for warmer weather. By the time the snow melts, it will probably be time to snow again. I am seriously thinking of spending the winter in a warmer place but it is hard when you have a home to maintain as well. I did get another great grandchild. Her name is Miriam Elizabeth Riehle courtesy of JJ and his wife Samantha. We plan to attend Peter's wedding in Montana in May and visit Tammy in June and then possibly visit Jennifer in the Fall. We want to go camping in the summer and the summer just isn't long enough to do all we want to. Hoping maybe I can get to see Marty and his family too sometime.

I am still having pain issues and I am going to see a specialist. Hopefully something can be done. Life is not much fun when pain is on your agenda every day.

We did take a trip to Bingham Canyon mine. It's part of Kennecott's open pit mine. Years ago, the town of Bingham was a very narrow town of one mile long and a a block wide. The town does not exist anymore however. It was taken over by the mine in 1971.

ACNES Abdominal Cutaneous Nerve Entrapment Syndrome

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After months of pain and numerous medical tests that were totally unnecessary, the only other diagnosis found is Abdominal Cutaneous Nerve Entrapment Syndrome. Which is a pinched nerve somewhere in the spine or ribs which can come and go depending on if it is aggravated or moved by posture etc. Unfortunately, normal x-rays cannot see it so a DR who is familiar with the condition needs to inject lidocaine into the spot where the pain is concentrated the most. I kept trying to tell them where the pain started but they just assumed it was gallbladder or liver problems and had me tested.

One top of this condition, I do have spinal arthritis which may be contributing to the pressure on the nerve. And I also have pressure that cause my arms and shoulders to spasm and burn. I do have a crooked spine and humpback and round shoulders which cause my spine to curve inward. Randy had it with his hip for years and it was not taken care of until his hip surgery and no DR even thought what it might be. Even young people can have this problem.

So I need to find a DR who can treat this but in the mean time my DR wants me to have more tests and an MRI which I don't think will do any good. (I already had one of my brain and I guess I still have a brain.)I think I will have to go to a pain specialist. The pain can be very bad and if feels like you are dying. But after all the tests I have, I am perfectly healthy except for the nerve entrapment. All I know is maybe that's what my mother had with all her pain. They say it's quite a common condition but it seems most Dr's don't know much about it. My DR finally said that I probably have it but he has no answer on what to do next.  So I have to learn to live with the pain and I never know whether it will be here tomorrow or gone for a few days. So very discouraging. I hope I can find a DR who knows had to treat it. That is all I can say.

On top of this problem, Randy got bit by Wellington and it become infected. We are contemplating letting him go as well as a couple of other cats. Wellington is a good cat but not with Randy's white female. He stalks her all the time and when Randy tried to get him away, he bit Randy. Too many cats with too many different personalities. Gimli and March and Blue do OK but the others all have their problems. So we may just have to let some go.