Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Nervious Butterflies



Well Saturday is nearly here and I would be lying if I said I was not nervous. But Randy and I love each other so much that I think once we meet in person we will only grow to love each other more.

I feel like I have known him all my life and I am so comfortable talking to him about anything. I feel so special knowing him. I hope he will feel special knowing me as well. So wish me luck. I am very excited but having a lot of butterflies.

Friday, October 26, 2007

News

I got my flu shot today. I don't go to the Senior's as much as I used to. I used to win prizes on Friday but haven't for a long time. The food there is not that great but sometimes it's better than others.

I have met a good man named Randy and he is very kind to me and thoughtful. He lives in Mesa Arizona. I know my family is concerned about me, but I feel like I know him very well. We talk a great deal on the phone. He wants me to visit him. I know that if I really want to know him really well I do have to meet him in person. I plan to visit him on Dec 1. I know I said I didn't want anyone and that I like to be alone. Some of that is true, I don't mind being alone sometimes but I do need a love in my life.

I still love my Alex and always will. Just because I met Randy doesn't change things that way.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Too Old To Be In Love?




Because I think I am!! He is so nice, so caring, loves to listen, makes me feel good. His name is Randy.

He's MY GUY!

Monday, October 22, 2007

Randy

Randy and I have talked for over a week. We talk not less than 3 hours a day. He wants me to visit him in Arizona. I have not decided on that as yet. We both have a lot in common except for religion and marital status. He is divorced, and I am widowed. It feels good to have a guy to talk to again and someone who cares about me.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

New Friend



I have a new Internet friend. His name is Randy Minor. He called me last night and we talked for nearly 2 hours. We chatted yesterday for over 2 hours. He is really nice. I also have an e-mail friend named Don Taylor. We are just friends. We don't talk on the phone or IM. He lives in SLC and used to work for the state. He loves Utah but was originally from Kentucky.

Lately I have been have really bad headaches and dizziness just like when I first got diagnosed with MS. I also get nausea with it. It's awful.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Playing the Game



Yesterday I was just messing around on the Net. I found a truly free dating site and did some chatting. Later, some married guy wrote me and asked me if I wanted a roll in the hay. He was from Layton. He wanted to meet somewhere in SLC. I guess that's all they want from you right? His excuse was his wife was frigid after having cancer. I blew him off. Then another guy in his 70's hooked up to oxygen wanted a relationship. Sorry, I don't want someone disabled to that degree. The field for older people is not good. Anyway, I don't want marriage yet just someone to date maybe but not just for sex.

Anyway, I did join a really nice group of seniors who take trips every year. These are people over 50 from all over the world. There is only one person from Utah however. But we will all get to know each other by chatting and in forums and in the summer they are all meeting in Michigan for a get-together. This is not a dating group but relationships can form from them. I have been wanting to find a group like that.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Fun Night at Hotel Dracula

I had a fun night last night at Hotel Dracula. Hotel Dracula is a play that plays at the Valley Center Playhouse near Halloween. It's not scary, it's just funny. All of your favorite monsters are there. Dracula, his wife, Frankenstein, Igor, wolf man and the mad scientist. There a really weird family that comes to stay there and the laughs are abundant.

My granddaughter was a little too young to enjoy the plot but she sure enjoyed the costume contest during intermission.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Happy Birthday Tammy



Today is Tammy's birthday

She was a petite little girl born at 10:30 on October 11, 1972. It was hard getting her here because she came into this world face up.

When she was small she liked to pretend she was Wonder Woman. I think she felt overwhelmed a lot being the youngest for so long. Her older sister, Jennifer kind of overpowered her at times. Then when Matt came and she was not our youngest, I think she was a little jealous. Tammy has always been very loving and caring. She is a good mother and daughter and wife. She has three children and she works for the State of Utah in accounting. She is married to Charlie Bennett.

Nobody is like Tammy. She is a very special person and held a place in mine and her father's heart. Our lives would not have been the same without her.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

More About Me..

Stuff you probably already know....
I'm boring. I like to just have nothing exciting going on at times
I am too fat and if you are going to like me, you are going to have to like me fat
I do not intend to start dieting at this stage in my life. I want to enjoy the food I want while I still can

I hate to exercise for exercise sake; too boring. If I am exercising while doing something like walking or doing fun things; that's different.
I like it when people cook for me, I don't cook, I microwave
For the life of me I can't understand why anyone would want to be a vegetarian. I need my MEAT!

The things I like about myself are:
I am independent
I like my hair
I like my eyes
I have a sense of humor

Things I don't like
I am fat
I don't exercise
I am not very spiritual
I'm too gullible
I have a tendency to worry over dumb stuff (so right now I am no longer worrying about the things I don't like about myself)

I love Fall the best of all seasons; Heat is a killer for me
Sometimes I get on peoples nerves so just ignore me
I would rather be with cats than people sometimes
I am deep thinker and because of that, I have made myself skeptical on lots of things (I have to analyze everything)

My favorite vacations are road trips and cruises
I am not a huggy feely person; but I love my family
I feel sick a lot but it always gets better
I like to help people when need so I sometimes get screwed over

I will never feel like an old woman even though I am
I will stand by the mirror and ask
How did this young mind get into this old body

And right now this old mind better do a chkdsk on its hard drive because it can't seem to store short term memories like it used to.

For instance. I lost my dentures and found they were already in my mouth
I cleaned my drawers and nowI can't find anything
Sometimes I can't remember what I was thinking 60 seconds ago (like what in the heck is this blog about, rambling on about nothing and forgetting what I already wrote.) So I just need to SHUT UP.

I hope when my time comes that I will go fast and people will remember me in a good way

Oh well, I guess I still have a sense of humor and that can't be all bad.

Sphincter of Oddi dysfunction

My Mother: Maybe She Had This Problem:Sphincter of Oddi dysfunction

For most of her life, my mother was ill. She suffered pain in her back and stomach almost everyday. She was also very nauseated much of the time. For years she had been going to the Dr. and they could not find anything wrong with her. She had to rely on pain meds and never getting to do all the things she wanted to do.

Last night I was watching Mystery Diagnosis on the Discovery Health Channel. It told the story of a young woman who had pain in her back and stomach all the time. She was constantly nauseated. She went to many Doctors year after year and nothing helped. They finally took out her gall bladder and appendix. She felt ok for a while but then it started all over again. She was so sick she wanted to die. Doctor after Doctor told her nothing was wrong. They thought it was all in her head.

She had begun to throw up so much that they had to hospitalize her. The tests again showed nothing. Then they performed some sort of special MRI for the ducts from her pancreas to her duodenum. They noticed that there was something mechanically wrong with the ducts. They were twisted and obstructed. The medical tests she had had did not reveal that. It was probably congenital but did not show up until sufficient obstruction had occurred. So now they had a source for her pain. In exploratory surgery, they cannot see those ducts. This is called Sphincter of Oddi dysfunction.

They were able to operate on her and fix the ducts and drain them. She was better from then on. It was such a simple problem but one that was almost impossible to find. Had she not had the right Dr. finally do the right test, she would still be suffering today. The doctors said this problem would not have killed her, but it caused her to have a great disability with all the pain and nausea which she would have had all her life.

My mother wondered why she always was in such pain but never enough to kill her. I don't think her doctors ever did the test above and maybe if they had, she would not have suffered all those years.

I wish you were here Mom, so I could tell you about this and you might be able to finally get some help.

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Dolls and Nosalgia







I guess I take after my mom. I like to collect dolls and other cute things. I know I have no need for them, but it's fun. In the 50's there were some dolls from the Terri Lee family and every little or big girl wanted one. The main doll, Teri Lee herself, was created by a woman in Apple Valley CA. She was a sculptress and an artist. She created the dolls using a special kind of plastic. She painted their features. My cousin Phyllis had one first. She was so pretty that I wanted one too. You could buy lots of clothes for Terri Lee. My aunt Bernice, Phyllis' mother, made clothes as well and for a lot less. Teri Lee at that time was around $15 to buy which was a lot for a doll in those days. I wanted one so bad. One Christmas when I was around 9 or 10, I got one. She was dressed in a Scottish outfit and had blonde hair. She was like the one at the top. My aunt Bernice had made clothes for her. I loved her so much. I made the mistake of letting my girls play with her after I was married. She got ruined and I guess thrown out with the trash. Today she would be worth a lot on e-Bay. I looked on -eBay and found some authetic ones for sale at a large amount of money. Then I found a replica or Terri Lee on the Target web site. So I puchased two of them for $20 each. I have included photos of the replicas and photos of the vintage ones from e-Bay.

On the photos below you will see some of my dolls that I collect and the comic books I also used to subscribe to. Terri Lee even had her own magazine at one time. I want to get some clothes for Terri Lee and there are some on e-bay. Maybe I can talk Tammy into making me some. She is a good seamstress.I used to just love Little Lulu and Tubby. I had an original Lulu doll in the 50's and I subscribed to the comic book. I now have another Lulu doll which my honey got for me for my birthday and a small Tubby and Lulu doll that Marty and Cherise got for me.
I also loved Nancy and Sluggo from the comic books. It's good thing Tina made me a pair because I couldn't find anywhere to purchse them. So call me crazy. I just love to collect dolls and other items I have purchased from places I have visited.




Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Alex
















Today I am thinking of Alex. My Alex was such a hard worker and had so many talents. My home is full of the things he has made. Outside, you can't look out there without seeing his masterpieces. He could take plain old wood and make into a thing of beauty. I don't know how he did it. I can't even pound in a nail straight. I do miss him very much. He had so much to give. I don't why he had to die so young. He used to loved to get up early and watch the sun come up and work in his garden. Many times at night he would be out with a flashlight irrigating the land. He was such a hard worker and in earlier days he would work a full day at work and come home and eat and spend the rest of the day working in the yard or with his tools. He had many plans and dreams and desires left. But he did leave me with my seven wonderful children and I love them very much.
So I have kept the home he never wanted to sell or move from and I have tried to make improvements on it. I hope he doesn't mind what I have done to it. Time passes so quickly; it seems like yesterday we were young and raising our little family. Though we had many hard times, I still remember the good times and I do miss you Alex, very much.

My Grandson


My grandson, Michael is in jail. It is own fault he is in there. He has always been a good kid until he starting liking girls. He fell for the wrong girl and she led him down the wrong path. He was so in love with here that he didn't see she was wrong for him and got him into doing very wrong things and now he is jail while she is free because she's a juvinile. I saw him get born and he lived with me a lot so it was really hard to think this would happen. One of the reasons he is in jail is because of things he did to me while he was living with me briefly. I never thought he would things like that to me but I am sure he got brainwashed from that girl. (she is actually his wife) and I really hope she dumps him even though he will be upset. Then maybe he will learn to think for himself.

I saw him at court yesterday and he was crying. I felt really bad for him in a way but in another way, he was warned and he should have learned to think before he acted so now he has to pay for it. I am really upset to see him like this but he will have to learn to help himself before others can.

The lady we stayed with in Santa Rosa has a sister who is a famous writer. Her name is http://www.ellynbache.com/